I spend a large amount of
my time saying the same thing over and over and over again. Like calling a child’s name or asking them to
put their shoes back on or telling them, for
the love, EAT YOUR DINNER! (This
principle is also true of my relationship with my husband who, though he is
still young, can’t seem to hear for the life of him…so I get to say things to him over and over too…)
I heard something said yesterday at church. In context, the person was speaking about now that you know Jesus, "how then will you live?" I liked that. It was good. Contemplative even. But then I got to thinking...in the context of child rearing, how then will you live?
Somedays I wake up plumb exhausted. I mean, before I’ve even rolled out of bed, I
can feel it. The truth is, it isn’t
simply body-tired…it’s that my heart is tired.
My soul is weary.
So, I realized that there is a thread of seriousness to my
recent posts…and while that’s good and all, sometimes it’s important to
remember to come up for air. Perhaps
it’s because our life is (generally) anything but serious. Most days, the hardest thing we face is
whether anyone’s sock is crooked in their shoe. That and when the mailman is
coming because my kids think getting junk mail is a pretty big deal. They act like its Christmas or something. –we’ve
really gotta get out more – (Merp.)
I digress. Anyway, I have decided
to list a few confessions – ya’ know –
just to keep me humble and give me something to cringe about a few weeks from
now…
Before I had children, I didn’t
even know it was possible to love someone who threw up on your toothbrush. But in child-rearing, as in life, the
struggle is part of the story.
I work in the world of Foster
Care. It’s been almost a decade of my
professional life with a one-year, brief intermission wherein I stayed home to
care for our then-6-month-old-son. TEN
as in ONE-ZERO. This reality was driven
home this past week when I received an alumni newsletter and homecoming
invitation to my 10-year, class of 2006, college reunion.
Throughout the six months of our
time as an engaged couple, we made lots of plans, as any couple does. We talked about a myriad of things…there
seemed to be endless possibilities. We
prayed equally as much as we talked and it became important to us both to not
plan a wedding so much, as to plan a marriage.
There’s a delicate balance between a person who is absolutely
normal and one who is absolutely wacko – and I know that balance well.
I’m not sure the internet or, more likely, the few people who read this
blog, are quite ready for this information.
Truthfully, I’m not sure I’m ready to put this out there. But here goes…